I wish I was five?

Oh my butthole! I just have to say some very sad bad things!
Running is just a big butt sometimes!
It takes all the spontaneous fun out of my life! What is this!?
I feel like a porcelain doll, and I have to do everything perfect to be good at running. Sleep enough, eat right, don't get injured. Ugh ugh ugh.
Yesterday I went to the zoo with these little keeds, and it was the best thing ever just to see them tromping and hopping around screaming at every animal they saw. Just so oblivious to most things that big people fill their cluttered heads with. I wish I was like that, like tiny and carefree.
I don't wanna live life all perfect and scheduled for anything, no matter what.
I wanna live it messy and sloppy and wait to see what will take me by surprise! It's just not fun to be in control of everything.
Sometimes I feel like running is all about seeing how many factors I can control to get better. But I don't want control! I want life to be a roller coaster and an adventure.
So right now I'm about to drink lots of evil caffeine (muahaha) and stay up extra late (oh the shame!) so I can try and get done as much homework as possible (then I can party the rest of my week away.)
Both equally horrible for running.
BUT I DONT CARE. man, I sure live life on the wild side, staying up late on a Saturday to study and all. Woa, go me.

PS- actually i don't wish I was five cuz then I couldnt ever wander around the city an night. Suckle!