The unadventurous Nationals
Woa, it's been awhile. Well, as far as adventures go... I qualified for Nationals.
And, it was fun. But there's a little secret I have to tell. It was not quite an adventurous feeling. I am grateful for my achievements, but perhaps it was somewhat of a learning experience for me as well.
The feeling that was the best was that of accomplishment. The feeling of achieving something that in one point in life you thought was impossible is... like sinking your teeth into meat after the forty day Lenten fast. It's so satisfying. It's kinda like that rush of joy when you find your wallet under the chair. But I think more than satisfying, it's empowering. You start believing in yourself more. You realize that a lot of things can be done with a little passion and determination.
You learn the secret recipe that your own self needs for success in achieving goals!
But the only weird thing about Nationals... I just felt like... I was running. Which I can do any day any time. Tyler asked how it felt to be running at Nationals, and I was like... uhhh. It was running. Anyone knows how that feels. Granted, I did't have that great of a race. But even when I had my best race at Regionals, it was still...just...running.
I remember standing on the podium receiving my medal thinking, well this is slighty anti climatic. We all just herded about and got tired, and now we're standing on a wooden platform. Kewl.
So here is what I'm trying to say. Let's get down to the nitty gritty. I love running, and I love achievement. But I think there might be actives that I love MORE than running.
There are so many ways to move your body and so many abilities to learn. And I just run. The most exciting part about running is getting better. But what if I got pumped about more than just getting better, but also the movements.
Take for instance, the skate park. I'm not that good. But I'm usually pretty excited just to be zoomin around on blades. Because it's freakin cool! And scary!
I'm sorry running, but perhaps you are not as much as a lover as I thought! Is that what I learned from going to Nationals? That I don't love it as much as I thought I did? That. Is an odd outcome.
Perhaps, this is just a weird feeling that will pass. Maybe I'm poo-pooing what I do, and if I loose it I'll wonder why I didn't appreciate it more.
But for now. Running is not oh-so adventurous. Unless of course it's one of my special runs that includes fence hopping and running through train yards and getting mistaken for a prostitute. More later.
And, it was fun. But there's a little secret I have to tell. It was not quite an adventurous feeling. I am grateful for my achievements, but perhaps it was somewhat of a learning experience for me as well.
The feeling that was the best was that of accomplishment. The feeling of achieving something that in one point in life you thought was impossible is... like sinking your teeth into meat after the forty day Lenten fast. It's so satisfying. It's kinda like that rush of joy when you find your wallet under the chair. But I think more than satisfying, it's empowering. You start believing in yourself more. You realize that a lot of things can be done with a little passion and determination.
You learn the secret recipe that your own self needs for success in achieving goals!
But the only weird thing about Nationals... I just felt like... I was running. Which I can do any day any time. Tyler asked how it felt to be running at Nationals, and I was like... uhhh. It was running. Anyone knows how that feels. Granted, I did't have that great of a race. But even when I had my best race at Regionals, it was still...just...running.
I remember standing on the podium receiving my medal thinking, well this is slighty anti climatic. We all just herded about and got tired, and now we're standing on a wooden platform. Kewl.
So here is what I'm trying to say. Let's get down to the nitty gritty. I love running, and I love achievement. But I think there might be actives that I love MORE than running.
There are so many ways to move your body and so many abilities to learn. And I just run. The most exciting part about running is getting better. But what if I got pumped about more than just getting better, but also the movements.
Take for instance, the skate park. I'm not that good. But I'm usually pretty excited just to be zoomin around on blades. Because it's freakin cool! And scary!
I'm sorry running, but perhaps you are not as much as a lover as I thought! Is that what I learned from going to Nationals? That I don't love it as much as I thought I did? That. Is an odd outcome.
Perhaps, this is just a weird feeling that will pass. Maybe I'm poo-pooing what I do, and if I loose it I'll wonder why I didn't appreciate it more.
But for now. Running is not oh-so adventurous. Unless of course it's one of my special runs that includes fence hopping and running through train yards and getting mistaken for a prostitute. More later.
:) I think you are in a little bit of a 'post' season running phase. Just remember what a freakin' stud you are! And how "scary" it is to push your body to it's limits!
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